Monday, October 7, 2013

Cameron turns 1

This year has FLOWN by!!!  I can't believe that this 19 pound baby sleeping on my shoulder is the same 4lb 14oz sweet pea we welcomed to our family one year ago.   Come to think about it I can't believe it has been a year, and wow what a year this little boy has had!!  

I will never forget the phone call I received at Starbucks on Oct. 9, 2012.  I was with a friend and Justin called me 3 times in a row.  He never does that so I knew it would be important.  When he told me that our social worker called and there might be a baby I almost dropped my drink.  Sure enough right there in Starbucks I learned that not only was there a potential baby, but he was three days old.  I learned that he had Down Syndrome and a heart condition.  I was asked if they could give his birth parents our profile.  

One thing led to the next and a week later we were meeting our baby.  I look at his pictures and the change is incredible.  His first year was extremely busy.  This year our sweet boy has experienced a major open heart surgery, came off of his full time oxygen, been on several trips, gone to Disneyland and so much more.  

Cameron is by far the most pleasant baby I've ever met and literally an angel on this earth.  We are so blessed to have him in our family.  Happy Birthday my sweet sweet baby! We love you Cameron!!!     

 MARCH 2013
APRIL 2013
MAY 2013
JUNE 2013
JULY 2013

 OCTOBER 2013 
Don't be deceived, I really don't think he put any in his mouth.  He sure did have fun destroying his cupcake though!!!

Friday, October 4, 2013

Another miracle has happened

I cannot believe I am writing this post. I have anticipated this day for the last three months and yet I sit here in my car waiting for rehearsal and it is still hard to believe that it is true. 

After 10.5 years of marriage I am pregnant. When I took the pregnancy test I was caught completely off guard!!! I couldn't believe my eyes, but there it was... 2 very dark blue lines!!! 

I was nervous for many different reasons. First I don't get pregnant, so with all of my infertility issues over the years it could just as well have been a tumor or a blighted ovum, so we wanted to wait until we could get an ultrasound and find out what we would be announcing. Second I was worried about miscarriage. Having only been pregnant once before and having such a horrific miscarriage made me really scared this time around. 

I had to wait a long time to get an ultrasound and the month was really hard on me. I've been very sick and very tired. When the day of my ultrasound came I was a bundle of nerves. I really was hoping for the best but trying to prepare my mind for the worst. I didn't know what we would find during the exam. 

I was soooo grateful to have my amazing husband by my side to hold my hand. I get so much strength from him and I am so grateful to have a partner who loves me through all my crazy. 

The technician started the exam and there on the screen was a baby!!! A real baby with a heartbeat!!! The thing that completely caught me off guard was that I could see it moving!!! Because this is my first time around doing this I didn't know that you could watch the baby kick and stretch. It was one of the most beautiful things that I have ever seen in my life.

As anyone who knows me could have guessed I was a puddle of tears on that table and the rest of the day. I cannot believe that I have been given this gift. 

I can't believe that God loves me enough to bless my life with the adoptions of my next to perfect boys and now I get to know and experience pregnancy and delivery! Wow!!! 

I think the thing that excites and scares me the most is how close in age this sweet babe will be to my angel Cameron. I have always been a little sad that Cameron wouldn't have a sibling as close to him in age as Evan and Landon are to each other. The older boys have such a good relationship because they're so close in age, and now Cameron will have that too. It is a little terrifying how close they'll be (18months) but I know it'll be
a gift. And really who am I to question God's timing? With a 3% chance of getting pregnant this is no accident. I know this is Heavenly Fathers plan for our family and I am extremely excited to embark on this new adventure, whatever it may bring.

And so I am happy to announce that baby Palmer is due April 19,2014.