Saturday, October 22, 2011
I have wanted to write this particular blog for a while, but really needed to have some significant time to be able to write it as effectively as I possibly can. I have that time tonight so here goes.
Life is hard. That really is the point of it. We are sent here to be tested and tried, but God knows us so well that he gives us the things we need ... good and bad. It is so easy to see the trials because they are all encompassing at the time. From extremes in infertility to physical disabilities, and rejections to being jobless. Justin and I feel like we have been given a lot of trials. There were times that I questioned whether God really knew how strong I was, because there were so many times I felt I would break. The trials aren't what I want to talk about right now, but they factor into what I am feeling.
I am grateful!!! Sure I am grateful for everything that I learned/ am learning from each experience but that isn't even what I mean. I feel like there is nothing wrong in my life right now. In fact I can't believe how well everything is going. I feel like I am literally the luckiest girl in the world because I get to be me right here, right now. Some would say, "I'm just bracing myself for the bad, because it's coming." I know the bad is coming (it can't be avoided), but I am not spending my time bracing myself. I have been spending my time LOVING this amazing wonderful ride I am currently on. It is going to be these moments of tender mercies that get me through whatever is coming next. It is like Heavenly Father has said, "Kira and Justin, you have gone through a lot. I know you are grateful for the miracles you have experienced throughout the years, but I also know that those years have been hard, really hard. Here is a pillow to rest for a little while. You deserve it. Take a nap."
I love my life and I want everyone to know it.